When I finally refocused on what I truly wanted—to become a mother—I had to face one of my deepest fears: that I would become like my own mother. She struggled with mental illness and subjected me to physical and emotional abuse. For years, I unconsciously carried the belief that if I became a mother, I would repeat her mistakes.

But I knew in my soul exactly what kind of mother I was meant to be. To become her, I had to rise above the patterns I inherited. I had to forgive, grieve, and let go of the belief that I was broken or doomed to repeat the past. Through deep emotional work and intuitive guidance, I reconnected with my truth—and stepped into a higher perspective.

After three failed rounds of IVF and endless affirmations, I was devastated. Even with the best doctors and my unwavering desire, I couldn’t conceive. My eggs were too old. And while it seemed like I was doing everything “right,” nothing was working.

What changed everything was this: I turned inward.

Through the same subconscious methods I used with my clients, I uncovered the belief quietly running my life:

“If I have a baby, my husband will leave me.”
My body had been protecting me from abandonment. A polyp had even formed in my uterus—physically manifesting that fear.

That awareness shifted everything.

It became clear: this wasn’t about biology. It was about alignment. My body wasn’t broken—it was wise. It was protecting me based on a story I didn’t even know I was telling.

When I let go of the idea that motherhood had to come a certain way, I opened to receiving it another way. I chose to become a mother through a donor egg—not as a compromise, but as a soul-aligned decision rooted in love, trust, and truth. And in that moment, I reclaimed my power.